I wanna share my truth my how my life is today : updated 12-17-2024. I'm Arlene im 31 years old, i live in  Misamis Oriental Philippines, i have own 1 child which is 12 years old boy , and i have one legal adopted child he's 2 years old now. What brings me here is i don't know anymore and im not sure , because i dont know if someone would understand me. Ive been married and now widow my husband passed away last 2022. He was older than me and ts the best thing happen in my life because i felt that Im not alone anymore. When he died my life being so miserable but i keep on moving forward.  This is the true saying that if you have something dont give it all to someone you care because one day they will leave you when you have nothing. That's my late husband said to me. Im trying to be one, im trying prioritize first my own family but how could i if i know that theres someone out there needed me more than i need them. Its sad because when im husband passed away I felt very much alone, i carry heavy things that o thought i could not survive it anymore. I have 8 sisters, 4 brother, 3 of them still studying, 2 of them in college and 1 is in highschool ,and i have a son in elementary and i have 1 niece live with me that go in elementary as well. I AM the one supported them in school and its too heavy i want to rest,take a deep breath.  Wanna cry ,i want to talk to someone that probably can understand my feeling, judgement is everywhere and i cannot prevent that, thats normal. To be honest pension from my late husband thats where i get to support to everyone. I did not complaining, its just truly hard of your alone on everything that even if you give everything to them its not enough, you forget your self because you care to much for them but they doesn't appreciate it. But it is what is, all i can asked God help me to be still me , that i can still keep going, im struggling without knowing them . Because if i tell they dont believe me , because i always keep smiling and